waiting to live

Back again, you.

With that familiar laugh,

And a vacuum of silence following

The weight of your fading smile.

Like a memory drifting out of mind,

A snowflake,

Or dandelion plumes evading

The grasp of my curious hand.

You–

Like the winter night falling

The stillness, the emptiness

And that sparkle in the snow

Or your eyes.

I almost caught a glimpse 

Of something lost so long ago.

But it’s far too cold here

To keep the flame of hope alive.

I was chasing a runaway train,

The dreams of you beyond my horizon,

Your silhouette at the edge of my sight,

And I find I’m back to déjà vu.

You.

I wake again, restless

And wander the alleys of my heart

To yearn for this fleeting light

I could almost envision–

You,

Back again.

To haunt me with the melody

Of a love abandoned to the past.

And though I falter,

Though I fear for what the future holds

And my knees are weak with doubt,

I am determined to know you.

No matter how long it takes,

Or how afraid I am of the pain it brings.