waiting to live

This long, lonely road I’ve walked

Since I had my heart shattered

Has brought me such joy,

Such pain,

And such longing

That I thought I could not bear it.

Yet I do,

And I continue to struggle

Against all odds,

Against the countless losing bets

I make,

Time, and time, and time again.

What else is there to do

But love and lose?

I have no madness left

To run from myself again.

As foolishly as I weep,

I am far too old

Not to follow my heart

Wherever it takes me.