waiting to live

Knowing and not understanding,

Seeking and not finding.

The definition of insanity

Is doing the same thing over and over

And expecting a different result.

Knowing and not understanding,

Seeking and not finding.

Years have passed,

My scales still tilt toward the future.

If only I could be free to choose it

What then?

Everything has changed,

Nothing as I imagined.

My expectations are an anchor,

My regrets have formed an ocean.

Knowing and not understanding,

Seeking and not finding.

The echoes of loneliness, 

The biting isolation,

Surrounded by thousands

Yet unseen, unheard.

And finally, finding fragments of truth

In resignation, in presence,

In a hurry to go nowhere,

To deliver a smile to no one.

And have a smile delivered,

The delicate passing of flames

Is what has kept human spirit alive

In the face of constant resistance.

This prison is inside your mind.

Seeking is a waste of time,

Knowledge is worth nothing without

Understanding found within the heart.

That is where you must start.