break in case of emergency

I’ve spent near every day of my life thinking about death:

Fearing death, yearning for death, coming to peace with death.

Life has shown me it can steal away the best of us at any time…

The randomness of it, the suddenness of it.

The Question became: how should I live such that I regret nothing, and yearn for nothing?

I have, at long last, found my answer.

If I died tomorrow and had one final message to the world, it would be this:

I’m happy to be remembered

And laughed about over a drink.

But some long time ago I realized

That was far from the point of all this.

My legacy isn’t complicated.

Where there are smiles, burdened

By the weight of the world

I am there, lifting that weight.

I did everything in service of a day I wouldn’t see,

When all can share the joy I fought to achieve

Quite simply,

A smile that costs nothing,

That hides nothing,

And that wants for nothing.

Until the very end of time and with all of my heart

I wish you well, my cherished people.

To you all I owe every ounce of joy I reaped

And more.

As you hoped, I planted

Countless seeds of my heart,

Many of which are already blossoming

And bearing magnificent, restorative fruits.

It was more than I could have ever hoped for

To have the chance to live and love as I did.

Spread healing in my memory

Until we are as one again.

Humbly,