waiting to live

The horizon vanished before me,

Leaving behind an endless void

As I began to understand

This nothingness is infinite.

The piles of dust that gathered

In the corners of my heart

Began to glow like diamonds 

In the radiation of eternity.

What I had become was God,

Or greater yet

I had become as nothing, and

One with everything.

Indistinguishable

From any face in the crowd

Or grain of sand

Or star in the sky.

I traversed that pathless road

Across a thousand lifetimes

Without taking a single step,

In the perpetual motion of

Beginnings and endings,

Births and deaths,

Infinities and singularities– 

I ceased to exist entirely.